Rainy day blues.

Good evening everyone! Well, no “!” over here, more like “…” That’s just how I feel. Now, rain can dampen anyones mood, especially if you are already sad and have a lot on your mind. Which, is true to my case at the moment. All I do is wake up and think of that boy, think of all the “good morning beautiful” texts I use to love to receive everyday, but then I think about how they slowly went away and became obsolete. Also, anything I do in my day, I think of him. We use to talk on the phone, text, and Skype all the time when we had the chance… aka we constantly talked because when we couldn’t see each other or physically talk to each other we would text. I have lunch and dinner and think of him. Our favorite place to eat lunch was Moes Southwest Grill, and our favorite dinner place especially for our month anniversary celebrations was Olive Garden. He introduced me to OG and I introduced him to Moes, two of our favorite places. Of course, onto the next part of the day which would be nighttime. The time we would have our Skype dates and do homework until we were tired and when we went to bed we use to text until one of us passed out first. I remember the first days in our relationship where we would text until as late as 3 or 4 in the morning. We couldn’t get enough of each other, but towards the end of our relationship I thought it would be cute for us to pull the same “all-nighters” again, but he was always too tired for them. So 1 would be the latest.So, you see, everything I do reminds me of him. I still have all of our old photos up, all the flowers hung and dried, all the cards, our souvenirs, presents, and anything you can think of still up and around my apartment. I’m currently in the process of moving into a house I just bought and honestly. I’m not ready to take them down yet. They will probably go up in the house too, until I’m good and ready to say good-bye. I’m so pathetic, I still have the “is in a relationship” up on my Facebook and our anniversary date. I loved him, I still do, so it’s hard but I know it will get better. I just need to get this all out of my system, and this is the only way I know how. The rain isn’t helping either, rain makes my happiness level plummet down and obviously like those sad moves/music videos I just want to crawl up by the window and look outside all dramatic and what not.  but, I’m being lazy and laying on the couch and the window is on the other side. Thanks for listening… er, well reading. My lovely roommate, Mac, just walked in with Zebra Cakes… dinner is served.

Yours truly,

Clair Kwahadi Parker