Double Ramen trifecta

Contradicting title, maybe so... but Mac is currently in the kitchen talking in an odd foreign accent. Talking about massacring the double Ramen noodles he just cooked for himself while I'm currently typing this before I go out on a dinner date. He currently screamed, "AHHHHHHHHH :O blistering waters, they burned me." Honestly, I feel like he picked this accent up from MW3 which we play a lot. It also may have a hint of Russian in it. He's on that mafia status with the Ramen noodles tonight. Well, onto my norm conversation of my Blog. Today has been good, raining again but I've been able to stay positive all day. Maybe it's because people haven't told me what he-who-shall-not-be-named-yet is up to. Or maybe it's because I'm going out with a friend from high school tonight. A friend date of course, you know, you have to lay down the rules when it comes to things like this. We are both coming out of relationships and just want good pure friendships... and I also don't mind a good free dinner. I'm not going to lie though, I still miss him and I will probably still be thinking about him a lot but I'm thinking a break from the thoughts tonight is exactly what I need. It's been a good day, I may as well keep it up. Looking online just now I did find an interesting quote... "We move on, put those dreams away, hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day. How could I know that everything would change except the way that I miss you?" It's perfect in a way because well, like I stated previously, it's been another rainy day here and well I'm trying to move on like he apparently already has, but even though everything between us has changed I still miss him like I always have. Then again, the quote is kinda odd too. I think the wording throws me off, but oh well. Tomorrow I'll talk about some new things I've done this summer or started doing, or maybe I will just give a little background info about myself so you guys can really get to know me. If anyone is reading this... Now, time to get off, get showered, and get pretty. I'm not necessarily a girlie girl, but tonight I'll wear a dress. The only thing is, is that when it comes to me getting ready I am a total girl. Wish me luck! :)

Yours truly,

Clair Kwahadi Parker

Rainy day blues.

Good evening everyone! Well, no “!” over here, more like “…” That’s just how I feel. Now, rain can dampen anyones mood, especially if you are already sad and have a lot on your mind. Which, is true to my case at the moment. All I do is wake up and think of that boy, think of all the “good morning beautiful” texts I use to love to receive everyday, but then I think about how they slowly went away and became obsolete. Also, anything I do in my day, I think of him. We use to talk on the phone, text, and Skype all the time when we had the chance… aka we constantly talked because when we couldn’t see each other or physically talk to each other we would text. I have lunch and dinner and think of him. Our favorite place to eat lunch was Moes Southwest Grill, and our favorite dinner place especially for our month anniversary celebrations was Olive Garden. He introduced me to OG and I introduced him to Moes, two of our favorite places. Of course, onto the next part of the day which would be nighttime. The time we would have our Skype dates and do homework until we were tired and when we went to bed we use to text until one of us passed out first. I remember the first days in our relationship where we would text until as late as 3 or 4 in the morning. We couldn’t get enough of each other, but towards the end of our relationship I thought it would be cute for us to pull the same “all-nighters” again, but he was always too tired for them. So 1 would be the latest.So, you see, everything I do reminds me of him. I still have all of our old photos up, all the flowers hung and dried, all the cards, our souvenirs, presents, and anything you can think of still up and around my apartment. I’m currently in the process of moving into a house I just bought and honestly. I’m not ready to take them down yet. They will probably go up in the house too, until I’m good and ready to say good-bye. I’m so pathetic, I still have the “is in a relationship” up on my Facebook and our anniversary date. I loved him, I still do, so it’s hard but I know it will get better. I just need to get this all out of my system, and this is the only way I know how. The rain isn’t helping either, rain makes my happiness level plummet down and obviously like those sad moves/music videos I just want to crawl up by the window and look outside all dramatic and what not.  but, I’m being lazy and laying on the couch and the window is on the other side. Thanks for listening… er, well reading. My lovely roommate, Mac, just walked in with Zebra Cakes… dinner is served.

Yours truly,

Clair Kwahadi Parker

Just a little introduction to my Blog...

Hi guys! So, since this is new no one will probably read this but just in case someone is out there reading this I’ll answer some questions about this Blog and myself. My name is Clair Kwahadi Parker, and I’m 20 years old. Young,  I know but I’ve been through a lot more than most people have at my age. I’m just your average college student majoring in Nursing and minoring in Psychology. I recently went through a break up and it’s been pretty tough. I’m usually not a pansy when it comes to a break up, which technically I haven’t really had to deal with any since they end terribly anyway, but this one was different. He was my bestfriend and he was there one day and now he’s not, so it is definitely hard but I’m getting through it. Which, in case it wasn’t clear is the whole reason why I’m writing this Blog now. I was going to do a summer bucket list and Blog about all my accomplishments but half the things on my list I have already completed sooooo… that wouldn’t be fair so I will just Blog about my journey through the break up instead. My personal opinions, my advice, what I do, what helps, what doesn’t help, the whole nine yards. And of course, if you end up reading this then ask questions by all means. I won’t hold back, unless it’s a weird question of course.This Blog will be completely honest no fabrication, and it should show signs of my ADD every now and then. Also, I want to just say that I am thankful for the people getting me through this already like my main man, God, my family, my best friend Mac, and most of all my beautiful Aunt Nancy and amazing Uncle Robert. Oh, and Ponchita and Kensington aka King. I’ll introduce these guys later in my Blog though. Happy readings… hopefully. 

Yours truly,

Clair Kwahadi Parker